I finally passed the big 5-0! It felt like forever. The PPOD (Positive Pic Of the Day) started as an idea from a single picture. Today is the 51st day of 365. The goal is to take one picture per day and find one positive aspect of the day. This equals to 365 moments of happiness in one year. It seems easy enough to start but the challenge is completing it. It’s not as easy as I thought it would be.
Even though I have a wonderful family that love and support me, I had moments when I felt alone and sad. I’ve been retired for a few years now. It was a big change from working long, busy days. I also recently took a break from work I was passionate about. I became a full time housewife. I was doing the same things every day (cooking, cleaning, doing laundry). I stayed home most of the day without anyone to talk to. The routine became tiresome. I had moments when I asked myself “what’s the point? Is this all I have to look forward to for the rest of my life?” I’m not learning, not working, not socializing, not evolving. I’m not making an impact on my life or the life of others. I noticed I had more and more moments and thoughts like these. Then I had days where I didn’t want to talk to anyone or be around anyone. There were days all I wanted to do was lay down and sleep on my old grey couch. I knew I had to make a change.
I realized I had to do something or my life could quickly take a turn for the worse. I’ve been there before, a very long time ago. A place of sadness and darkness. It feels like walking alone in a long, dark tunnel with no one and no end in sight. There’s no light to be seen at the end of this tunnel. It’s an easy place to get stuck in and a hard place to get out of. I needed to find another way. I needed to avoid this place. This place that traps many and keeps them hostage until they succumb to self-destruction. I needed to find another road. The road to positivity and a happier, more fulfilling life. This is the change I needed.
Without knowing anything about blogging, I decided to do a little research and created LifeLifter. Necessity truly is the mother of all invention (or in my case, creation). I thought this name was fitting because I needed to lift my life up, and out of the rut it was in. I also wanted to lift other people’s lives and make a difference if possible.
The truth is, LifeLifter was initially created for lifting my life then lifting others’ lives second. It sounds selfish but I needed something to pull myself out of the negativity that was starting to surround me. I asked myself “Can I help others if I’m falling apart?” I thought that maybe I can get to a better place while helping others get there with me. I hope that through blogging and the PPOD, I can continue to keep myself out of the dark tunnel and hopefully inspire others to become more positive.
The formula to solve my problem:
1 pic a day + 1 positive thing (anything) a day = 365 moments of happiness
From my blogs, it may seem like life is all sunshine and roses, happiness and positivity 24/7. Here’s another truth… IT’S NOT. There are days when I find it hard to be positive. Some days, I find the positive aspect of my day early. Then there are days when I don’t think I’ll find anything at all. There are days where I have to put more effort into looking for it. And there are times when I have to continue to tell myself to stay positive. Some days, I just want to go back to my couch and forget about the PPOD. But this has become a personal challenge. I challenge myself to finish something meaningful. I just need to get to 365. After that, I might stop or I might not.
I’m thankful for the PPOD. It motivates me to keep trying to find that single thing in my day that will make me smile, bring a little happiness, motivate, or inspire me. It’s been working. But I won’t lie, it’s hard some days. There are still days when the “what’s the point of it all” moment work its way into consciousness. But it’s definitely less.
It’s been 51 days. Has the idea of finding a moment of happiness per day changed me? I think it’s slowly changing me. I’ve noticed that after posting the PPOD, I can’t recall what was bad or what was wrong about the day. I’m so busy trying to reach my goal of finding one positive moment and writing about it. That’s actually all I can remember, just the positive moment. I look forward to reaching 365 days and then analyzing the results to see if the formula for happiness I came up with actually works.
Lifelifter is supposed to be a journal of my thoughts, feelings, travels and experiences. I have so many thoughts going through my head and many feelings that weigh heavy on my heart. I needed the outlet. Through the process of writing, I have learned quite a bit more about myself. I think it’s because writing allowed me to be more aware of what I’ve gone through, how my life is going at the present, and where I want it to go in the future. I had put my thoughts and emotions on paper. They became real. They were “in my face.” I had no choice but to deal with them.
Writing helped me face my fears. The fear of being judged. The fear of having people know my innermost thoughts, feelings, and even some of my secrets. I feel like some of the weight I’ve been carrying has been lifted off my shoulders. I feel like I’m finally becoming free of thoughts and feelings that have plagued me for a long time.
Through LifeLifter, I hope to share experiences that others can relate to. Some people might be going through the same situations at this very moment. I hope it helps them in some way. Sometimes, all we need is a few words from someone who has been through what we’re going through. It lets us know that we are not the only ones dealing with certain situations. It lets us know that we can survive whatever hardship we are dealing with because somebody with the same problem has survived it.
I also hope my travel blogs help those who can’t travel right now. This is the reason I put more pictures than words. It’s true that a picture is worth a thousand words. Sometimes, I feel like I can express more through them than by writing lengthy sentences.
When I was still in the military and was not able to travel much, I enjoyed seeing my family and friends travel. Their pictures made me feel like I went on the trip with them. I figured I can do this for others. I’d like to reach people who can’t travel because of work, time constraints or hardships due to family problems, monetary reasons or physical limitations. I’m not rich and I don’t have a lot of money, but I’ve been blessed to have the opportunity to be able to travel at this point in my life. I want to share as much as I can with others so that they can see what I see. So I can take them to places they want to travel to, even for just a few minutes. Even if it’s only through pictures.
365 days seems so far away. There are days when I doubt I can make it to the end. I have to remind myself to enjoy each moment as I get closer to my goal. 51 days down, 314 to go.
I hope you continue to keep me company as I try to attain my goal of 365 days. I hope the PPOD inspires you just as it continues to inspire me. Each day is a choice to be happy. It’s a choice to try to find a bit of happiness in everyday things and situations. I appreciate your company. Thank you for sharing my journey.